I tend to stand out on the Upper East Side in Manhattan.

For one thing, I don’t own one of those fancy shmanzy “To Go” Coffee Mugs.

Instead, I am the “quirky” young woman walking down the street with the torn black sweatpants (hey, they are SUPER comfortable), the Old Navy book bag, aptly colored navy, that I inherited from my husband’s little sister (it was way cool in the early 2000’s), and my hands gripping a white glass coffee mug, Jimmy (yes, I named him), whom I have owned for centuries.

Eccentricities aside, this is one small way I honor Mother Earth. Oh wait, two. Not only am I wearing a plethora of hand me downs, but ALSO carrying Jimmy around town instead of tossing out paper cup after paper cup in the trash.  Hey, I do what I can.

I even bring my Jimmy yp the gym if I haven’t finished my green tea of morning cup of Joe. Yes, there are many questioning glances my way.  I just smile mysteriously as if I have figured out an amazing secret as to why my glass mug is much better suited for warm drinks than their snobby “to go” containers.

A couple days ago,  I walked into the coffee shop, handed Jimmy to the dashing gentleman behind the counter, paid for my coffee, turned around, and heard a gigantic CRAAAAAASSSSSHHHHHH behind me.

The sweet and obviously hung-over barista had dropped my precious Jimmy on the floor, shattering him into a million pieces.  I will admit, at first, I was a bit sad, disappointed, and slightly annoyed.  I mean, I had known Jimmy for a long time and now he was smashed to smithereens. I couldn’t even offer him a proper goodbye. It would be impossible even to identify his body at this point.  I felt like he was taken too soon, too young.

Then the owner of the coffee shop, who had been sitting inconspicuously across the room, leaped up and ran to my rescue.

“Oh honey. Wait, wait.  We are so sorry. No problem, though. No problem.”

He reached over and grabbed a fancy, much larger, BEAUTIFUL mug from the shelf and handed it to me.

“Here you go.  This for free from us as an apology.”

The new mug was no Jimmy.  That’s for sure.  She felt different in my hand.  A little less comfortable.

I took a deep breath and I looked closely at my new mug.

She was shiny and looked very strong.  She was painted with beautiful colors.  She was much larger.    Jimmy had been pretty small and plain white and not nearly this solid.

I smiled.

I would miss Jimmy, but somehow it seemed like “Delores” was just the type of mug for me.  She was an upgrade, even when I didn’t ask for one consciously.

I thanked the men at the shop and headed out to the NYC air, Delores in tow.

Walking home, I realized that I may have lost my little Jimmy, but the Universe sure knew what she was doing by bringing me Delores.

Like the quote, “When we let go of something limiting, we make room for something bigger.”

How many times in my life do I hold on for dear life to the proverbial “Jimmy”,  when what I really need is Delores, the true answers to my Prayers.

How often do we stay in jobs, relationships, old patterns that may not serve us at all, just because they feel comfortable and we are too scared to try something new.

Sometimes we need Source/God/Universe to take charge in the form of a lay off, a break up, or shattering glass awaken us.  To make room in our lives for something better, something more beautiful, an upgrade.

Sometimes, we have to let go of a Jimmy to allow the Universe to manifest a Delores.

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“So I heard some of the football guys talking and they said you’re easy.”

My heart fell into my stomach. I was completely mortified.

I was an 18 year old virgin from small-town Kansas, and attempting to make my way through an intimidating social hierarchy at my new college in Los Angeles.

Upon retrospect, this guy didn’t know what he was talking about and probably just felt I wasn’t interested in him.  Or was HOPING I was easy so he could get “some”.

Yet, none of this matters.

At that moment, I believed him.  I didn’t believe that I was easy.  But I did believe that others saw me that way.

And I did not want that.

Hence, this was my Ego’s black and white solution:

Wearing feminine clothes that fit and look attractive=EASY

Allowing my warm and sometimes flirty nature to come out in conversations with straight men=EASY

Walking with my shoulders held back and my head high=EASY

Womanly Curves=EASY

Sexy=Easy

So I began wearing looser clothing with less shape, dark colors (Nun-esque).  I tried to hide my curious and confident Spirit behind a demure smile and quiet presence.  I attempted to “blend in”.  I started working out as much as possible to straighten out the curves.  Sexy was my enemy.  I was playing very small.

In other words, I stopped being ME.

I let one man’s random comment keep me from experiencing the fullness of who I am, my Wholeness.

This lasted through most of college and then a few years afterwards.

Then, a little over a year ago, I was speaking with a good friend about what I do for a living. I told her all about my Sexy Soul Wellness where I help my clients Love Their Bodies, Own Their Power, and Live Their Dreams.

She looked me straight in the eyes, and said, “So it sounds like you help your clients Own Their Power, but you can’t do that for yourself.”

Ouch.

The Truth Hurts.

And that is when I came Home to my Inner and Outer Sexy in a whole new way.

Not because I wanted to impress anyone, get attention, or win a social contest.  I wanted to “Bring Sexy Back” (Thanks Justin!) FOR ME!!!

My Sexy is part of my Power.  As a woman, this is my Divine Birthright.

I began holding my head higher when walking down the street and making eye contact with others passing by. Sometimes I would even smile when I felt so moved.  I started dressing in clothes that felt good, bright colors, and fabrics that hugged my curves.  I decided to take dance classes and yoga and get to know this beautiful body of mine.

I felt a fire growing inside my Core.  It had always been there, this Divine Spark.  Yet, now I could FEEL it.

Some might say I look easy.

Some might say I look snotty.

Some might say I look fake.

Some might say I look aloof.

But me and my Sexy, we FEEL fabulous!

And Whole, and in our Power.

And most importantly,  I feel like ME!

From the Archives (originally published as a Guest Blog on http://www.michelleperrone.com/...in honor of my Interview with The Family Balancing Act about Claiming our Sexy.  Listen in on Tuesday the 14th at 3pmEST!  http://thefamilybalancingact.com/  

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from Guest Blogger, Amber Krzys

I wish I had a dollar for every time I heard a woman share how she was okay with almost all of her body, just not her ________.  Feel free to insert your most troublesome area.   The usual suspects are butt, thighs, belly & arms.

Boy, do I understand.  I was that woman.  I always felt like I had a pretty face and small upper body,  but my main problem area was my lower half.  I often fantasized about replacing it with a  thinner, better version.  Basically I wanted to cut out what I had and insert someone else’s – like real life photo shop.

But that didn’t exist, so I opted for the longer, often bumpy, yet highly rewarding path of self-acceptance.

Today, I’m sharing one of my many learnings with you.

You probably don’t think of it like this, but we tend to compartmentalize our bodies. It’s true. We think things like, “I like my smile and my eyes, but I hate the cellulite on my thighs and my poochy belly.”

Ultimately we ignore what we don’t like. I call this neglect.

Now wait a minute you say.  I do an extra set of abs three times a week or stairs on the beach just to target my belly and butt.  How can you say that is neglect?

I say it’s negect because the energy behind the exercise is coming from a place of force and not love.  It’s neglect because when you think of that area you have NOTHING good to say about it.

Let’s pause for a second and think in terms of a relationship with a significant other.  What does that relationship need to be successful?  The top four qualities in no particular order are Trust, Communication, Respect and Love.  We are going to focus on Love today.

So how do we demonstrate love in a relationship?  By paying attention.  By touching our partner and offering affection.  Maybe it’s a big smile greeting them at the door.  Or, a hug when they’ve had a hard day.

These are all ways we demonstrate our love.  But, what happens when our schedules get busier and we spend less and less time at home.  Over a prolonged period of time, exhaustion and distance start to creep in.  Many times resentment comes into play and the love starts to disappear.

Ultimately, neglect rears it’s ugly head and at this point in a relationship you either break-up, continue to be in neglect / denial, or you communicate and recommit to those top four qualities.

So, what does all of this have to do with your body?  I want you to consider cultivating a loving relationship with her.

Here are three ways to do just that:

1. Touch Your Body

Say what? Yes. Place your loving hands on the parts of your body you dislke the most and tell those parts you are sorry.

Did you know studies have indicated that withholding affection is a form of abuse? You wouldn’t  withhold a hug from your child. Why withold it from your body?

2. Compliment Your Body

Tell her out loud what you like about her.  For example, “Body, I love your strong legs and the way you carry me throughout my day.”  “Body, I so appreciate the gift of breath you offer me.”

This is a concept I explore more in bodyheart bootcamp, but for now just know it’s the easiest way to begin dialoguing with your body.  Identifying your body as a ‘she’ and having her own wants is a wonderful way to create space for neutrality, so that you may provide love and healing more fully.

3. Take the ‘I’m Willing’ Pledge

Let your voice be heard and become a part of our community that is based in acceptance + compassion.  The ‘I’m Willing’ Pledge asks that you commit to being kinder to your body this year and share one way you plan to do that. This is a powerful display of your intention. By sharing it publicly you are more likely to honor it.

See some powerful examples and even take the ‘I’m Willing’ Pledge yourself at http://www.bodyheartbootcamp.com/rockin-abs-the-secret/?ap_id=corapoage33.    Once you click this link, go ahead and click the “I Commit Contest” link on the right!

These are just three ways to demonstrate love for your body. There are many many more. Feel free to share some of yours in the comments below.

Peace + Pleasure,
Amber

http://bodyheart.com

Amber Krzys is a coach, speaker, change-maker and dog lover! Her company, bodyheart, is devoted to liberating women from their body-punishment prison. The bodyheart programs, like bodyheart bootcamp, have helped hundreds of women deepen in accepting & loving their bodies. The bodyheart campaign is a movement for women (& men) demonstrating their enoughness. 

I sat by Buddha on the plane.

He was wise, gracious, warm, and centered.  He was on the path of self-realization and enlightenment.  I felt healed and uplifted from our conversation.

He was also a 27 year old Wind Turbine Technician from a town in Iowa with a population of 200 people.  He wore a black cap that read Chevrolet and a Nascar sweatshirt.  He was handsome in a down-home country way and was quick to smile and laugh which I found refreshing.

We shall call him Ronny.  He had been in jail at least 4 times in his short life and was only 14 when he was first arrested.

Ronny was two years sober and an active member of AA (Alcoholics Anonymous), NA (Narcotics Anonymous), and was a leader/role model for the Teen Group of this nature.

In the past, I may have sat down next to Ronny, glanced at his outfit and demeanor, and placed my nose in a book as fast as I could pull it out of my bag.  I am ashamed to admit it, but I may have judged him as….hmmm…a hick?  close-minded?  maybe not so bright?

I know, I know, but hey, I am NOT the only one who sometimes judges others on first impressions! (in the past, up until now)

The point is, something inside of me said, “Listen to him, Cora.  He has much to teach, and you my dear, have MUCH to learn.”

Okay, Okay Spirit. I hear you.

So we engaged in a conversation that lasted from the minute I sat down in my seat until we parted ways in the terminal in Oakland.

What did I learn from Ronny/Buddha?

-The importance of throwing in the “white chip”, surrendering to a Higher Power.  This is the moment in AA where we admit that we are powerless and need help with our addictions.  And we ALL have addictions (sex, drugs, alcohol, work, dieting, people pleasing, negative thinking, etc)   None of us are meant to let go of these alone!

-The power of Presence.  He shared that staying in the moment and focusing on “what is” with gratitude keeps him from experiencing anxiety about the past or future.  The very same anxiety that led him to drugs and alcohol in his past. This helps him stay centered, peaceful, and sober.

-What bring us life fulfillment is different for everyone.  Ronny was perfectly happy in his tiny Iowa town because he is close to family, likes his job, and has good friends there.  The idea of living in NYC, acting, and running a business sounded interesting to him, but not enticing at all!  We are all so different and I need to remember that we all know what is best for ourselves.  All the answers are within.

-That one can wreck A LOT of cars and receive many MANY DUI’s and still start over, forgive oneself, and say yes to Life.  Each day is a new beginning, a new chance to align with our Truth, Integrity, and Calling.  Ronny’s enthusiasm for life reminded me of a child’s natural way of being.  His two years of sobriety were the first two years of his New Life.  SO INSPIRING!

-That Wisdom comes in all forms.  Ronny/Buddha did not look like a Prophet, but hey I’m sure Jesus didn’t always come across as “holy looking” to the people of his day. Ronny is a Master Teacher, even without the monk robes.

My conversation with Ronny was my Sunday Church Service.  What he taught me will live in my heart, mind, and soul forever.

Angels, my friends, are EVERYWHERE.  Even in the mirror.;)

Ronny reminded me of this.

And okay, okay maybe he DID ask me for my phone number, knowing full well I was married.

But hey, even Buddha was human.

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by the fabulous Guest Blogger, Mordechai 

To begin, I’m going to classify two schools of thought as the East and West. The East is more spiritual and connected to the oneness of our reality. While the West leans more towards the side of cold facts and endless fragmentation of individual pieces of information.

In my own young experience I have been tossed from side to side, over and over every time coming to the realization that this is the one true reality, whatever side of the coin it may be. I then went out with flaming passion towards whatever camp it was who’s so called banner I was waving. I was overjoyed to finally be at home with those who are on the same page as me.

The problem was at every stop on the journey my mention of experience with the other side was either met by ignorance of its existence entirely, or a negative attitude towards it! The sides were either consciously or unconsciously using each other for a background to themselves, who of course represent all meaning and truth.

What a frustrating reality of separate worlds, so close to each other, even living in complete peace at times, but yet the communication between them is nonexistent, or in more serious cases, tragic.

There is one alternative to these opposites, and that is the Middle Path, which is the integration of more than the “either or” of reality. Am I a body with a mind? Or do I have a soul? The answer is yes. Does my environment affect me? Is it my upbringing, or my genetics? How about my past lives and reincarnations? Yes!

We as human beings have been given this great tapestry, like gift of life which surely encompasses more than just one side of the story. I want to empower you to own your power through your whole self, with your whole story, not just the fragments that are labeled as you. There is so much much more than that, the true whole, including the process.

Many good wishes to all of you.

Mordechai  is a student of Kabbalistic and Chassidic, thought working in holistic health counseling to establish change in people while integrating the separate aspects of their reality into a dynamic unified whole.

Check out his site for contact details: http://nutritionwithmordechai.blogspot.com/

Most people never think about what they are actually eating and drinking, and this is certainly true of milk. Cow’s milk is the lactation fluid of a cow, meaning that a pregnant cow produces breast milk to feed to her baby so that it can grow, but instead of the little calf drinking the milk, humans do.

We artificially impregnate cows and then take their milk and consume it.  Not only is the whole practice very cruel, but it is incredibly unnatural. (It is made even more so by the fact that many farmers shoot up these cows with hormones and steroids and antibiotics–all of which you then consume when you drink their milk.)

Humans are the only other animal in the world that drink the milk of an entirely different animal. Moreover, humans are the only other animal in the world that drink milk past the time that they are infants.

The dairy industry has spent billions of dollars advertising, lobbying, and paying for political campaigns in a (successful) effort to make us believe that the consumption of dairy is a requisite for a healthy diet. It isn’t. The problems with dairy are aplenty, and they stem from the fact that dairy is very difficult for the body to digest.

This makes sense: Our GI tract is not designed to break down the milk of another animal, and certainly not when we are adults and no longer supposed to be consuming even our own mothers’ milk. Years and years of studies have shown that milk and cheese contribute to digestive problems, heart disease, and skin inflammation, among other things. Dairy is extremely mucus-forming, and contributes greatly to allergies and congestion.

Studies examining the link between dairy consumption and cancer revealed that breast cancer was almost nonexistent in countries where dairy was not consumed.  Why don’t you hear about these studies? Because the mammoth that is the dairy industry is so effective at promoting what it wants the public to hear.

Something we all associate with milk is calcium and having strong bones. While it is true that dairy contains calcium, it does NOT promote strong bones. This is just brilliant marketing on the part of the dairy industry. Countries that consume the least amount of dairy have the lowest rates of osteoporosis. Our bodies cannot really assimilate the calcium in milk and other dairy products; in fact, they leach calcium out of your bones. Your best sources of calcium are green leafy vegetables, broccoli, tofu, sea vegetables, and legumes. Your body will easily absorb the calcium (and all the other wonderful and plentiful nutrients) in these vegetables.

If you remove dairy from your diet, you will almost immediately notice benefits, namely less congestion, better digestion, fewer allergies, and better skin. Your body will thank you, and so will the environment (and the cows!). I completely understand that it can seem overwhelming to part with dairy, especially given that it is a staple in many people’s diets; if this is the case, you can try cutting back on your consumption each week until you reach your goal. Know that as you change the way you eat, your taste buds adapt.

If you are eating dairy, it is very important that it be organic because at least then you’re avoiding the hormones, steroids, and antibiotics, but don’t be fooled into thinking that organic dairy is good for you. It’s just less horrible.

Below are some alternatives to the traditional cow’s milk and cheese and yogurt. Experiment!

Alternatives to cow’s milk: almond milk, coconut milk, rice milk, hemp milk, all other kinds of nut milk, soy milk

Alternatives to cheese: nut cheeses, soy cheeses, nutritional yeast (this is not the same thing as baker’s yeast), goat cheese (Goat cheese is easier to digest. Ideally you would eat only vegan cheeses, but for those who really feel they can’t give up cheese, goat cheese is a much better choice. As for vegan cheese, I really love the brand Daiya.)

Alternatives to yogurt: coconut yogurt, almond milk yogurt, soy yogurt

Alternatives to dairy ice cream: coconut milk ice cream, almond milk ice cream, soy ice cream

Christina (http://healthycosmos.com/) runs a holistic nutrition and health coaching practice and studies at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition  (http://www.integrativenutrition.com/). Christina graduated summa cum laude from New York University (NYU) and was inducted into Phi Beta Kappa in 2011. She is also a graduate of the Ann Wigmore Natural Health Institute. She believes in supporting the body’s natural ability to heal itself, and has spent a great deal of time traveling the world, throughout more than 40 countries, in order to learn about the different natural modalities used to heal in various cultures.  

I’ve decided to start dating again.

It’s time.

I’ve been in a dating rut for awhile.  So overly focused on my business, my One Woman Show, Acting Class, holiday prep, and day to day logistics.  Life has been incredibly amazing, but something has been missing.

It’s time get back out there.

Am I perusing online dating sites?

Hitting up Singles Mixers?

Going on blind dates with friends of friends?

Nope.

I am looking across my apartment at my partner of almost 10 years.  The beautiful, wise, and steady Mr. Benjamin Hamm.

My Life Date.

You see, I have to admit that I have been taking him and our relationship for granted.  We are like a well-oiled machine and we work together extremely well.  We give each other unlimited space and support for our separate goals and dreams.

We have Family Meetings once a week where we discuss finances, schedules, and future plans with grace and ease.

I am so grateful for all of this.

But lately, we have turned into Life Business Partners, as opposed to Life Love Partners.

This hit me recently when my mom asked me, “What do you and Ben do together for FUN?”

Crickets…

Fabulous question.  I used to know the answer.  When we first met, our life was filled with fun experiences together.

We loved going on runs, hiking, playing board games, exploring new neighborhoods, fake house hunting, sporting events (more fun for him than me), dance classes (more fun for me than him…see it evens out), visioning of our dreams and goals, going to plays and musicals, etc etc etc.

Yet, somehow we moved away from all of this.

Up Until Now.

Two days ago, I sat down next to Ben and said, “Would you be willing to date me again?”

He laughed and then looked at me and realized I was very serious.

“Really?” he asked.

“Yes.”

“Of course,” was his (correct) response.

We went on our first “date” yesterday, exploring apartment possibilities and neighborhoods in Brooklyn.  We stopped into a cozy candlelit coffee shop and talked and laughed and cried. (Okay, Okay, I cried)

It was a two hour date, yet that was MORE than enough time for me to remember how much fun I have with Ben.

Yet, I remembered more than that.  Ben is MUCH more than a Life Business Partner.

He is my Best Friend.  My Life Partner.  My Teacher. My Inspiration.

And absolutely, my #1 Date…

For Life.

Tears were welling up in my eyes.  My heart was racing a mile a minute.  The possibility of puking all over my friend Pat, felt very real to me. “I just feel so guilty. Like I am going to get in so much trouble…I shouldn’t have done that.”

Pat looked me straight in the eyes, and without a hint of pity said, “Guilt?  Well, that’s the problem.  I gave up Guilt a long time ago. I realized it didn’t work for me.”

My chin dropped to the floor.  “You’ve let go of Guilt? You don’t feel it?”

“Nope! It’s a really heavy energy.  Why beat myself up? If I know I made a mistake, I learn from it, I say sorry, and I do everything in my power to make up for it.  Then I MOVE ON.  I let go of the Guilt.”

Pat’s sage words have popped up quite frequently for me in the past few weeks.

Recently I said and did something that I have really questioned.   I was in the moment and speaking authentically, but did I say too much?

Was it bad?

Was I bad?

Should I have responded differently?

Did I hurt the people involved?

GUILT-ridden would be a rather accurate description of my state of Being up until recently.

So I took action. I re-connected with the person involved and found peace with them.  I journaled about everything I learned from this experience and saw how many amazing realizations came from all of it.  I forgave myself for being human.  I surrendered back into the Loving.

And…I still felt the Guilt at times.

My Self-Care suffered.  My Spiritual Practice became less and less cultivated.  My sleep was horrendous.  I was in my head A LOT.

Then I remembered Pat’s Words:

I gave up Guilt a long time ago. I realized it didn’t work for me.  Why beat myself up? If I know I made a mistake, I learn from it, I say sorry, and I do everything in my power to make up for it.  Then I MOVE ON.  I let go of the Guilt.”

I then realized that I was CHOOSING to hold onto the Guilt energy.   My Ego loved that! If I was beating myself up and not taking care of myself, then I was definitely NOT stepping into my Calling, playing Bigger, and residing in my Loving.

The Ego’s Dream come TRUE!  Why? Because when we are caught in the prison of Guilt, our Egos get to be in charge.  They feel safe and in control when we are playing small, feeling stuck, and in a cycle of Self Loathing.

When I stepped back and observed this dynamic, I could finally see that I was playing the Victim here, CHOOSING to feel guilty, to re-live the scenario, to stay stuck.  I was CHOOSING to distract myself from my amazing life, by focusing on this drama.

That is when I gave my Ego a hug and said, “Ego, I love you. You can live inside me and help me out when needed, but…

YOU ARE NOT IN CHARGE ANYMORE!”

And with that, the Guilt released into the atmosphere, and my Heart and Soul are back in the Pilot Seats working with the Big Guy or Gal in the Sky to co-manifest the life of my dreams, align me with my deepest Calling, and keep me focused on my Truth, residing in my Loving.

Guilt?  That doesn’t work for me anymore! I let Guilt go a LONG time ago…:)

xoxoC

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The Time is Now.

If you have been hiding, please come out into the world.  If you have been toning it down, dampening your light, your Power, please stop.

It is not the time for “fitting in”.  The Universe, the world, we need you.  We need to hear your Unique mission and message.  We are yearning to be healed by exactly the song your are meant to sing.

It might feel scary, that’s normal, but remember… the Time is Now.

There are shifts, major changes occurring in our reality and inside ourselves.  We can resist and struggle, or we can CHOOSE to allow.

And as we surrender and allow the Divine to work through each of us, we will be healing first ourselves, and then the world.

The world is in pain.  We have forgotten how to take care of our Home.   We have forgotten we are all One Love.  Yet, some of us are remembering…are you???

You are not here to play small.  You are here to be a Conduit of Love and Light. To remember who you really are, and where you came from.

And as you remember, those around you will begin remembering.  We are not meant to do this alone.

You are here to light your Soul on Fire and dance to the rhythm of your Deepest Knowing.

The Time is Now.

We are all being called to step up and out and into our Truth.

We are here to create Heaven on Earth.

The Time is Now.

Are you Remembering?

There is something you should know about me.   I feel immense pain in my gut just thinking about it.

I am perpetually late.

Or shall I say, up until now and in the past, I have been late to most, if not all,  occasions.

Even my own wedding.  Well…almost.

The only commitment where I am ALWAYS on time is Acting Class with my incredible teacher Deena Levy.  There are a few possible reasons for this.

1) I eat, sleep, dream,  and LIVE Performing.

2) I have hypnotized myself into believing that class begins at 6:45, instead of 7.  (Sneaky, sneaky…and it really works)

3) She has instilled the fear of GOD in me, in all of us.  The wrath of Deena.  Not because she is mean, she is just SERIOUS about the craft of Acting.    It is LITERALLY my worst nightmare to walk into her class late.  No really, I actually have dreams about this and wake up feverish and screaming.

My tardiness, like a cruel case of the chicken pox, has been spreading recently, all around my life.  It doesn’t matter what the occasion.  If I can find away to be late I will.

Even Singing Lessons with Lynn Loosier, one of my all time favorite activities, proved to be no match for my Super Human skill of running behind.  Not only did I climb onto the wrong subway and end up in the heart of the Bronx, stranded and wandering aimlessly, I then managed to miss the next two possible subways back down, because I was waiting on the wrong side of the tracks for ten minutes.

Oops.

I would love to say, “Oh that’s just me.  Silly Cora.  I’m just a late person. Isn’t it endearing??”

But that would be Bullshit.

And because I am committed to Living my Truth, I am calling my Bluff.

The Truth is…

Sometimes I resent my schedule.  It feels so full and even though it is overflowing with Love, Light, Passion, Dreams coming True, etc, I still feel trapped and tied down by the structure.

Why do we even have schedules and time and commitments???

I want to live in the Now, totally open and ready for anything that might come into my life.

I want to live in a place where there is no schedule and I can just Be.

Basically, I want to go Home.   Back to the Spiritual Realm, back to true Freedom.

Yet, it is also my Truth that…

I am Here Now.  I am both Home and Here.

I can practice Presence AND be guided by my schedule and structure.

If I didn’t have a schedule I wouldn’t get to experience so much of what the Earthly Realm has to offer:

Acting Class, Hot Dates with my Hubby, the incredible Body and Life Transformations of my Clients, Singing Lessons, Theater Productions and Concerts, Flights to see my family and friends, and I could go on and on.

The Truth is, I Love my Life here.

The Truth is, my Life is an Express Train to my Unique Destiny aptly named the Dream Life Express.

The Truth is, my Schedule is the Railroad Track for my train.  This structure lays the foundation for my Co-Creation with Source, allowing me to follow through on my commitments, my passions, my Callings on this Earth.

The Truth is my Schedule is my Partner.  And as long as I remember to “schedule  unscheduled time into my calendar”  (yes, I do hear how ridiculous that sounds), then I will feel more balanced, more peaceful, more centered.

The Truth is I forgive myself for judging myself for running late in the past, up until now.

The Truth is that when it comes to our  Spiritual Growth, Learning, and Expansion…

We are ALL right on time.

xoxoC

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